as most of you know, brent and i have now been trying to get pregnant for over 5 1/2 years now. two years ago next month was when we first attempted artificial insemination, which obviously did not work. we decided to take a 'break' from fertility treatments since then. most, if not all of you, do not understand the tole fertility treatments do to your body. it is horrible. the only way i can describe it is that it is having all the signs and symptoms of pregnancy without actually being pregnant. it's absolutely horrible. before we did ai (artifician insemination), we were on fertility treatments for about 7 months. we were simply just taking the basic of fertility medications, which was clomid, ovidrel, and prometrium. i also had surgery to open my left fallopian tube, which my fertility doctor thought was the result of our infertility. wrong.
anyways, brent and i are 'thinking' of doing one more round of fertility treatments, but this time we want to go all out. this means that it will more than likely cost us 2-3 more than the first time around. i have come across a situation where i have to choose between a career and doing the treatments. i will admit i really don't want to go through the disapointment of not getting pregnant again. not only that, but i have basically put my career on hold for 5 1/2 years by trying to get pregnant.
i will be graduating from fpu in may, ending classes for my ba in july, and hopefully start the teaching credential program in august of this year. the reason that we're wanting to try once more with treatments is because i still have health insurance through my job. i will stop working in august when i enter the teaching credential program. so if we do become pregnant (and that is a big if) then that means that everything that i have worked for will essentially go down the toilet. don't get me wrong. i think that women/moms should get an education, but for me personally i don't want to get a degree and do nothing about it.
i have a lot of important life changing decisions to make soon and i am thinking that pursuing a career in teaching will probably be the smartest thing to do right now. brent and i can't afford a nearly $1k fertility treatments.
