What do I think God meant when he gave me infertility?

I think he meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, and love deeper. I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down. I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols. I think God meant for us to find a cure for infertility.

No. God never meant for me not to have children. That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on. I've been placed on the road less traveled, and, like it or not, I'm a better person for it. Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let him down.

Frankly, if the truth be know, I think God has singled me out for a special treatment. I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, and most refreshing drink I've ever known.

While I would never choose infertility, I cannot deny that a fertile woman could never know the joy tha awaits me. Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own. And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advise I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when he handed me infertility. I already know".

Look-a-like

So I wanted to post this because there's a little girl by the name of Maycee in my ward. I've seen her around with her dad at parties and thought that she looked like my niece Hailey. Maycee's about 20 months old and Hailey's about 2 1/2 years old. I couldn't get over the fact of how much they looked alike. I talked to Maycee's dad and he thought the same thing. These pictures don't really do justice to how much they look-a-like. Kacy I just thought you might want to know that there's a little Hailey look-a-like running around in Fresno. You be the judge and see for yourself.

Here's my niece Hailey:


Here's Maycee:

Cirque Du Soleil Alegria

Brent's Grandma Mary invited us to go with her to a Cirque Du Soleil show that was coming to Fresno. The show was last Thursday at the Save Mart Center. It was so much fun and so exciting. I'm so grateful to her for buying our tickets to go or else we probably wouldn't have gone. We told her that it could be an anniversary gift for us. But as you can probably tell from the pictures below, it was a psychedelic show. We really didn't know what to expect, but overall it was a great show. I highly recommend it. Brent and I are definetely going to a Cirque Du Soleil show next time we're in Las Vegas.

There were clowns, and animal like royal people, and acrobats, and flame dancers, and contortionists. I sound crazy, but the show came together really well. I cringed during several parts that the acrobats were flying in the air and the contortionists bending their bodies. (I just have to say that I don't think our bodies were meant to be bent in weird positions).

We had really great seats and enjoyed every second of it. The time just flew on by. THANK YOU GRANDMA MARY!